Monday, May 6, 2013

bump #52: i can breathe


I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I was so nervous about "coming out" as an infertile a couple weeks ago. I kept asking Andrew if it was too uncomfortable a topic to make public, half hoping he would say it was so I could continue to avoid it entirely. Alas, he didn't. We decided it was more important to share our struggle and be honest with our friends and family as well as encourage others who may be facing something similar.

And I am so glad we did!

I feel like I can breathe again.

For the last year during every treatment and stressful cycle I felt like I was holding my breath. Suffocating, really. And that kind of routine is not sustainable. Eventually you pass out or explode.

I exploded... all over this blog and all over Facebook: "We want a baby and we can't have one". And BOOM goes the dynamite.

But instead of being overwhelmed by my sudden {albeit self-imposed} loss of privacy, I was overwhelmed with reassuring and encouraging words from the people who mean the most to me. I thought sharing this burden with y'all 8 more weeks as a Texan, gotta work those "y'all's" in wherever I can :) would knock the wind out of me, but instead you have been a breath of fresh air to my worn down soul.

I never understood the following verse as completely as I do now:

"Share each other's burdens, and in this way obey the law of Christ."
Galatians 6:2
Thank you for sharing this burden with me because Lord knows I can't handle it on my own!
I hope you know how very, very much I love y'all!

6 comments:

  1. You both are AMAZING!!! ...and you're BEST friends. Everybody LOVES You!!!! You are the cutest couple EVER!!!

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  2. I'm so glad that people in your lives have embraced you since your "coming out". :) xoxo

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  3. I'm so proud of you for telling your friends and family! I had a similar fear years ago about going public. But once it was out, I couldn't imagine keeping it a secret all along. Good for you!

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  4. I'm glad it's been such a good experience!! I mean, coming out. Not infertility. HA.

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  5. I am glad it was a relief for you! It was the same for me and my husband...we actually wondered why we chose to suffer alone for so long.

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