bump #93: sleep deprivation

It is truly amazing how very little sleep you can function on.

* I use the term function very loosely.

Functioning does not mean coherent, capable, or clothed.

 

Before I had a baby {Ooh, I love saying that! Never thought I'd get to!} everyone told me "sleep now while you can." And I kindly smiled back and nodded my head all the while thinking about how uncomfortable it was to even lay down for any amount of time due to acid reflux, round ligament pain, sciatica, and the laughable difficulty of simply trying to roll over in my whale-like state. I loved being pregnant and miss it everyday, but even I will admit that the last couple weeks were painful and the simple act of sleeping was a challenge.

 

Cut to now... 3 weeks post delivery, it's 1:30 AM and I'm wide awake with a sweet little baby boy sleeping next to me. Maybe I should have listened to everyone's advice and slept more because I am perpetually exhausted, but isn't that to be expected? I know I'm supposed to sleep when he sleeps, but all I can do is look at him all the time! I nurse him every 2 hours and he usually doses off at some point. And then I just watch him, in total amazement that this is my life now. I guess I'm scared that if I go to sleep I will wake up and it will all have been a dream.

 

Due to lack of sleep I have no idea what day it is, what I ate for breakfast, or where I put my cell phone.

 

It's ok. None of that matters

because my baby boy is here and I can snuggle him in my arms,

gaze at him even with ginormous bags under my eyes,

and thank God for this amazing dream come true.

 

And no worries. I'll sleep later... like in 20 years!