It shouldn't come as a shock that I have not shared many details of the last few months/years of fertility troubles with anyone in real life (blog world excluded obviously!)
Pregnancy, particularly pre-pregnancy, is very private. It's personal and fragile and I still don't quite have a handle on it. But blogging about it, just documenting these little bumps on the way to the big bump, is really helpful and healing.
I hope that one day in the not so distant future I can scan through these posts, with the cutest little baby in my lap :) and think "yeah, that pretty much sucked, but oh it was so worth it!"
I hope that we're not going through all of this for nothing.
Not just the money, though I complained a lot about that here.
Not just the time, man it goes by so slow.
Not just the emotions, wowza! If this is how I feel pre-hormonal flare ups, I can't even imagine what bumped-up bren is going to be like!
Not just the sacrifice. I won't get to eat sushi or drink margaritas whenever I want, and I'm still going to get super fat.
Not just the pain. I don't even want to know!
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We had our first intrauterine insemination (IUI) appointment this morning and if it is successful and brings our long-awaited baby into our lives,
it will all be worth it.
But if it doesn't work out this time, we are prepared to do it all over again...
Ugh. Praying for success this time! Everything went as well as expected?
ReplyDeleteThank you! This is my first IUI and the doctor as much as said it probably won't work due to that stupid polyp, but I had already taken all the hormones (femara and ovidrel) and everything so we gave it a shot. The procedure itself was really fast and easy, now we just wait and see. I could really use a crystal ball right about now :)
DeleteHi! Ok so Erika sent me your way and I'm so glad she did! I hate that we can relate when it comes to infertility, but I'm encouraged that you are able to look at it from a similar perspective and with a laugh here and there :) I am definitely going to keep reading and I'm hopeful that your first IUI is a success! If not, feel free to drop me a line and I would be happy to commiserate :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your kind words and encouragement. My heart broke when I read your post today. I will continue lifting you in prayer. In times like these I'm so grateful for gals like you and Erika who understand exactly what we're going through. We'll commiserate in these tough times and soon we'll be celebrating in the good times!
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